Fuu...

It's nice to have an MP4 to blast songs like Kodou and Zan and Defective Tradgedy and Child Prey over and over again at the volume of 20 (I usually have it at 5 or below) till I feel like my ears are bleeding just to block off the naggings of disappointment from my mother and to make myself numb to the sense of failure that's eating me from inside.
Today is a nice day.